salience
August 15, 2003
The summer is rapidly winding down.
I have been home for three months.
Normally cabin fever would have set in about two months ago. There have been times when just weekend trips home have seemed too long...
But this time things are different. Way different. I almost want to take a polaroid of myself and stick it on a print out my life's timeline with a mini "You Are Here!!" sign. It's a crossroads, a benchmark. It's a new feeling, really. I look in the mirror and see the same person I've always been, which is disheartening. I don't feel the same. For months upon months I have ranted about the duality of going to school out of state. It's not a schizophrenia of two me's, but it's two environments which don't overlap. This summer, I have added a third. And it's cool. I have had three different outlets for the three basics of my cornerstone: my family, my eduation, my future career.
This summer has been the hardest to swallow, in many ways. The most obvious being I no longer hid at home from the world, like I always have, absorbed into daily Alpharetta--running errands, cleaning house, doing odd jobs to beat the teenage, stagnant, summer work. I joined the rat race of major corporation office politics and I've grown to enjoy it. It's been an eye opening experience, one I will always carry with me.
I first walked through the doors of 1300 Parkwood this past May 21st, bright eyed and so nervous I thought I might pass out in the elevators. When I think back to everything that has happened just in the short three months I was on project, it's all a blur. I have to concentrate and pick one specific day in time for everything to come into focus: angelacustomersphones-ringing-nonstop-stress training deadlines rollouts... I might come back in the future, yet I am prepared to walk out of 1300 for the last time. You see, my eyes are not as bright as they once were, but you can be sure they're looking out to the world in front me.
I have been home for three months.
Normally cabin fever would have set in about two months ago. There have been times when just weekend trips home have seemed too long...
But this time things are different. Way different. I almost want to take a polaroid of myself and stick it on a print out my life's timeline with a mini "You Are Here!!" sign. It's a crossroads, a benchmark. It's a new feeling, really. I look in the mirror and see the same person I've always been, which is disheartening. I don't feel the same. For months upon months I have ranted about the duality of going to school out of state. It's not a schizophrenia of two me's, but it's two environments which don't overlap. This summer, I have added a third. And it's cool. I have had three different outlets for the three basics of my cornerstone: my family, my eduation, my future career.
This summer has been the hardest to swallow, in many ways. The most obvious being I no longer hid at home from the world, like I always have, absorbed into daily Alpharetta--running errands, cleaning house, doing odd jobs to beat the teenage, stagnant, summer work. I joined the rat race of major corporation office politics and I've grown to enjoy it. It's been an eye opening experience, one I will always carry with me.
I first walked through the doors of 1300 Parkwood this past May 21st, bright eyed and so nervous I thought I might pass out in the elevators. When I think back to everything that has happened just in the short three months I was on project, it's all a blur. I have to concentrate and pick one specific day in time for everything to come into focus: angelacustomersphones-ringing-nonstop-stress training deadlines rollouts... I might come back in the future, yet I am prepared to walk out of 1300 for the last time. You see, my eyes are not as bright as they once were, but you can be sure they're looking out to the world in front me.
lasaliente, 11:27
