salience
July 20, 2004
I'm alone he says, because I choose to be
I shut people out, he's seen it--he's felt it
why he asks, he doesn't understand
it's a daily toss up, really
this demon inside, it rips me apart
so far, I've been lucky
its claws stop at my veins
and my mouth acts on its own
I speak without thinking, because
I'm distracted with this evil, strong
I want so much to be open, always
but self-preservation wins every time
see, if I let my guard down, for any length of real time,
this monster would tear itself through my throat,
making its long awaited escape from my mouth
and me, I'd be left behind, shamed at my deflated presence
yet even worse is admitting I need the energy I loathe
I shut people out, he's seen it--he's felt it
why he asks, he doesn't understand
it's a daily toss up, really
this demon inside, it rips me apart
so far, I've been lucky
its claws stop at my veins
and my mouth acts on its own
I speak without thinking, because
I'm distracted with this evil, strong
I want so much to be open, always
but self-preservation wins every time
see, if I let my guard down, for any length of real time,
this monster would tear itself through my throat,
making its long awaited escape from my mouth
and me, I'd be left behind, shamed at my deflated presence
yet even worse is admitting I need the energy I loathe
lasaliente, 08:06
