salience
April 21, 2005
Wherever you place your mind, your focus will be.
It's a hard lesson I'm relearning on an hourly basis some days, it seems. We are quick to take the credit when things go our way, but agonizing slow in taking up responsibility for the directions in our lives. So many say it's hard to be alone, that solitude is the cruelty in life. How often do you look to others to celebrate? It's more like we wait to be kindergarten recognized our accomplishments and then find ourselves upset when we did not congratulate ourselves first. Because, most of the time, that is the only acknowledgement that can truly satisfy us.
Life, in effect, is a solitary endeavor. When situations are the most pressing, it's never, "I can do this," but "please, can't you do this for me?" We're all of us in a place right now where we're stepping back and really taking in the view: just where are we and is this where we want to be? Win or lose, it's a reflection of who you are. Who you've decided to be today.
Now, a few weeks away from leaving BC finally, I am not sad. I do not regret anything. Each (mis)step these four years has been a lesson learned, and my BC book of perspective is thick with experiences I can't even begin to explain to you. My time here is ending, and it's right. 23 May is a formality. As any proper end should conclude, there is nothing left for me here. I am to New York, you see.
It's a hard lesson I'm relearning on an hourly basis some days, it seems. We are quick to take the credit when things go our way, but agonizing slow in taking up responsibility for the directions in our lives. So many say it's hard to be alone, that solitude is the cruelty in life. How often do you look to others to celebrate? It's more like we wait to be kindergarten recognized our accomplishments and then find ourselves upset when we did not congratulate ourselves first. Because, most of the time, that is the only acknowledgement that can truly satisfy us.
Life, in effect, is a solitary endeavor. When situations are the most pressing, it's never, "I can do this," but "please, can't you do this for me?" We're all of us in a place right now where we're stepping back and really taking in the view: just where are we and is this where we want to be? Win or lose, it's a reflection of who you are. Who you've decided to be today.
Now, a few weeks away from leaving BC finally, I am not sad. I do not regret anything. Each (mis)step these four years has been a lesson learned, and my BC book of perspective is thick with experiences I can't even begin to explain to you. My time here is ending, and it's right. 23 May is a formality. As any proper end should conclude, there is nothing left for me here. I am to New York, you see.
lasaliente, 16:02
